If you’ve reading this blog post, you’re probably either subscribed to my blog or follow me on Twitter. And you’ve probably seen me talk about my great designs for playing through my Backlog of video games. And you’re probably wondering when the hell am I actually going to start playing the games in my Backlog and talking about them.
But before that I’m going to talk about myself for a little bit longer. So, if you are here looking for fun content about old video games, maybe skip this post and come back in a week.
I’ve been depressed for some time now. I got diagnosed back in 2012, got treated, got better (I thought), got off the meds, and slowly drifted back in to depression. The first time around I didn’t realize what was happening to me and my wife was the one who first pointed it out and encouraged me to see a doctor. When the doctor said I was better I thought “hey great, being depressed sucked and I feel pretty good right now,” so I took his advice and got off the meds. It took about 3 years, but over that time I think I slowly drifted back to being depressed. And about 2 months ago I started seeing a therapist again because it felt like life was getting the better of me. Originally, I was seeking help for managing my work stress, but she pointed out I seemed to have a lot of symptoms of depression. And she was right. I don’t know why I can’t seem to ever see it in myself when it happens, but I’m glad other people were able to point it out to me so I could start the healing process.
So, how does this relate to my aspirations of beating my Backlog? Well, when I was depressed it was really hard to build up the desire to actually want to do anything. Now that I’ve been taking some positive steps to get towards a more normal state of mind, I’m wanting to do stuff again. Like playing games, reading comics, going to the park, playing with my kid, and everything else I used to like. I’ve started to pick back up on FF9 as mentioned in my previous post and have really been enjoying it.
Writing these blog posts (and probably just writing in general) helps me put certain things in my life in order. So, this week, I’m going to do a couple more posts about some non-gaming related things like my healing process from depression, comic books, being a parent, etc. Please bear with me, I promise I’ll get back to talking about video games soon.